Where do all the crazies come from??? No matter how hard I try to hide from drama, it seeks me out and tries to drag me down. This time, drama goes by the name of Cathy. With her nut case husband who is violent and verbally abusive. Oh yea. a real nice guy. Not your average jackass though. He's the kind who takes a drunken joyride with his 2yr old in the back seat at 2am plowing over mailboxes and leaving deep tire marks in our neighbors' yards because he's crazy jealous and apparently thought his wife (Cathy) was at our house to hook up with our best friend Tim...(which btw, she wasn't. Her and Tim are friends, but nothing of the sort was going on. As if I would allow it anyway. But this idiot is crazy jealous and anyone who talks to Cathy is apparently trying to fuck her..) Yea, see what I'm saying about drama here. I didn't ask for any of this crap. This girl found ME.... WTF... Do I have a sign on my back or something? Yea..it gets better too.. or should I say worse? See, I thought she was my friend. And as a good friend, I tried to help her. Here she was telling me about how this guy ripped the doors off the cabinets in the kitchen because she was on the phone with her sister and he was jealous. Kicked in their bedroom door, pissed and vomited all over the house and kicked over their flat screen t.v. all in a drunken jealous rage. I was there for her. Told her she should get away from him because he's dangerous. Then all of a sudden, she back peddles. (Now mind you, I've witnessed some of his jealous/violent behavior. Remember, tire tracks in my neighbor's yard. And I've seen him hit her once) All of a sudden its how wonderful he is. Sure he has "issues" but he's a really good guy...... WTF???? Seriously?? She wants to stay with him and "work it out". So I said, whatever. I think thats a bad idea but its her choice right. She's all about asking me what I think. Wanting my advice. And well, I'm just being me. Honest. Sometimes brutally honest. Open about my thoughts and feelings. And when she spouts off, yet again, about how wonderful he is I tell her what I think. Its crap. He can't be the jealous crazy violent nut that we all know him to be and be this mellow wonderful man she's claiming he is now. And what does she do?? Attack me. Calls me a rude, hurtful bitch. After I've done nothing but try to be a friend to her. despite all the drama she'd brought with her. Well hey. You think I'm such a bad person? Fine. Leave me alone then... Heh...not that lucky am I? Nope. She comes crawling back. Her actions hurt me. Really hurt me deeply. I told her I wasn't so sure I wanted to be her friend anymore, after all the drama she's caused and the fact that now she'd done something so hurtful. She SWORE she should have known me better, that she was completely sorry and that she would never misjudge me again. I said ok. That things weren't going to be the same. And if she EVER did that to me again, no apology would fix things. Yup....fast forward three weeks to this past week... Idiot husband goes off the deep end, AGAIN, jealous over Tim. (Keep in mind right now that Cathy claims that Tim is like a brother to her. They share the experience of losing a child at 6 months gestation. She doesn't know what she would do without him as a friend. So she says.) He forbids her to ever see or speak to Tim again. And instead of standing up for herself, or for Tim.... She AGREES! And cuts communication with Tim without so much as a proper explaination or anything. Just that Dustin the ass forbids it and she is doing what he tells her. Well... that's wrong. Tim was very hurt by the way she betrayed him. Well damn it, you just don't hurt my close friends or family members (Tim is as close a friend as it gets. Uncle Timmay to my children. Emma's technical Godfather. He basically IS family) and expect me to not have something to say about it. I told her it was wrong. She goes on about how she's not going to be anyone's doormat anymore. HAHAHA! Yea right. I told her that was crap because she was still being Dustin's doormat. That she would go as far as to hurt other people just because he told her to. Do things she wasn't happy about just because he bullied her into it. And what do ya know??? She attacks me... AGAIN... Because I said what I thought and stood up for Tim where she wouldn't. Well. The friendship is over. I hope I never see or hear from her again. Her drama is not worth putting up with. New friends are always welcome. But damn it, I don't NEED one that bad.
So, in the end. Moral of the story. I am who I am. I am honest. I say what I think. Don't like how I do things? Tough. I do things my own way and I will never compromise my integrity for anyone. I don't let anyone push me around. It is a lot easier to hurt me than you think and when I hurt, I hurt deeply and forever. Either accept me for who I am. A caring person who is honest and feels openly. Or leave me alone.
I'm hoping to get back to writing here. I think I need an outlet for my stress. For my sanity.
That seems to be my motto lately. I am me. I am who I am.